Neo-plastic/Hyperplasia/Adenocarcinoma

I am FED up learning about conditions that are meaningless to me..................I am memorising names, symptoms and treatments of SO many pathologies and I don't really know what I am talking about so I think it  is a bit pointless......................................................................................................................

But, WAIT a minute Miss Smith-are you forgetting real reason for the study and the end goal? The people who HAVE these conditions and symptoms and live through the treatments who will NEVER forget the names of their pathologies. Yes I think I did forget that for a while today but now I have reminded myself I will plod ever forwards with my revision and think of my ultimate achievement, to be there for these patients in the future and perhaps not I will not "know" or "feel" what they are going through but I will have an understanding through my education of "why" they are going through it.

Motivational talk to myself done-carry on!!! :-)

Third last day of Semester 2, Year 2.

The 2nd semester is always the fastest at medical school and it almost over now, aside from the little matter of 4 exams of course.

I am excited at the moment, because of the no driving to Saint Andrews for 4 months, but I know about halfway through the holidays I will get bored (happened last year too) and wish I was going back sooner. And I will miss all my friends too. It sounds like a cliche but the only people who understand what it is like to be a medic are other medics......and we all support and help each other. So when we don't see each other for LONG LONG periods of time it is sad. Sob. 

This summer I will try to remember that I have only got 1 more long summer next year and after that the weeks of term time increase to 42 in year 4 and then 44 in year 5. And I bet when it comes to those wonderful days I will kick myself for not enjoying the lovely long holidays while I had them.  So enjoy Cassandra enjoy!!! :-)

Exam Time (again)

I live my life being examined 4x yearly.  So I have 4 SETS of exams per year which I love..................................hahaha er no..... loathe is a better "l" word to describe the feelings I have towards exams. 

The reason I hate them is I feel like they are not a true reflection of your knowledge base. As soon as I know the time is approaching to the dreaded event already my mind begins to change from relaxed and enjoying the acquisition of new knowledge to oh my god how on earth can I cram all this in so I can remember EVERYTHING in the exam. And then when I sit down in front of the paper I get the most tremendous blanks where I know bugger all.

Also I start to become a little manic about 2 weeks before said crappy exam. In my house there will be post it notes stuck EVERYWHERE with things I am frightened I will forget and of course will need in my big moment. 

So here I am sitting in front of my pink laptop thinking in 2 weeks time I have a most horrid week in front of me. Another set of 4 in a row. January was hideous when we had the same,  I was physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. I am not looking forward to all this coming my way SO soon.

It is during this difficult time that I remind myself why I keep on pushing to do this. When I was a wee girl I used to steal my big cousin's Doctor Play Kit and my mum would find his stethoscope underneath my pillow. I wanted my own Doctor's Kit then, as I do now, but not to play anymore(well a little playtime-I love hitting people with my tendon hammer). Now the goal is for real and the only way to get there is to keep on passing my exams......so on that cheery little thought I guess I better get back to my books.